ugh . ..  gosh. i hate this. i screwed myself over now. i am broken, and fallen and there is no one to fix me. i can't live like this n e more. i found out that the person i loved the most was here all along. i dun have to hide who i am. i feel normal, and beautiful. he noes my bad side and he held me when i cried once. we understand eachother. i noe him so well, and he noes me. i'd die for him, and he would for me. so he says. he called me beautiful which made my day. i feel healed when he hugs me. like he's some type of doctor. i feel safe, and happy. i have a chance with this person. but . . . he doesn't want to be with me. this is the worst feeling i had yet. u noe who u r. and u prolly dun even visit this site n e more like u used to. not til u met those cool highschool ppl. maybe i'll be lucky, and u will read this.

[xx] About You! [xx]

[x] What is your full name? mariana melisa zamora ruiz
[x] What does everybody call you? mariana??
[x] When were you born? 1.19.91
[x] What state do you live in?california
[x] What state do you want to live in? California
[x] What are your bad habits? try to commit su . . .. uhh biting my nails
[x] How tall are you? 5'6
[x] What color eyes do you have? brown
[x] What color hair do you have? blackish brownish red

[xx] What To Wear [xx]

[x] What name brands do you wear? ummm it dun matter
[x] Do you shop for clothes at Wal*Mart sometimes? never been there
[x] What type of shoes do you prefer? umm i dun care
[x] How many pairs of shoes do you own? 2, yup 2
[x] Do you wear sunglasses? If so describe them. umm they r crooked and blue
[x] What jewlery do you wear, if any? my bracelets .  .

[xx] What To Eat [xx]

[x] What food can you not live without? peppers, i need spicy
[x] What is your favorite hot dog condiment? ketchup, duh!
[x] What cereal do you normally eat? LIFE (healthy lol)
[x] Is your school food good? mleh its ok
[x] What's your favorite fast food place? CARLS JUNIOR
[x] What's your favorite sit down resturant? i dun noe

[xx] Friends [xx]

[x] Name your top five favorite guy friends.
    1. Casey
    2. JHORDAN
    3.efren
    4. jonathan
    5. oliver
[x] Name your top five favorite girl friends.
    1. lisa
    2. karen
    3. fatima
    4. anna
    5. chloe (I HAVE A LOT OTHER TOO THOUGH)
[x] Who has the biggest mouth? lisa. lol.
[x] Who is the quiet mouse? peggy
[x] Who would bail you out of jail in a heartbeat? casey. lol
[x] Would you ever date one of your best friends? umm no
[x] If so which one? nope
[x] Which one have you known the longest? umm i dun remember. lol

[xx] Music [xx]

[x] Name your top five bands.  
    1. AFI
    2. incubus
    3. ill nino
    4. otep
    5. linkin park
[x] What's your favorite song of all time? at the moment"feel good inc."
[x] What's your favorite love song? come wat may
[x] What's your favorite hate song? death of the seasons
[x] Rock or rap? rock

[xx] Movies [xx]

[x] Name your top five movies.
    1. Miss. Congenialty
    2. phantom of the opera
    3. Night at the Roxbury
    4. mouline rouge
    5. the hot chick
[x] What's your favorite movie genre? comedy
[x] Who is your favorite actor? lou diamond philips
[x] Who is your favorite actress? iono sandra bullock?
[x] What is your favorite movie of '04? my gosh i dun remember
[x] Do you wish to be an actress/actor? sometimes. maria says i'm good at playing those psychotic ppl that show up in scary movies

[xx] All Grown Up [xx]

[x] Do you want to get married? yea
[x] If yes, to whom? BRANDON BOYD
[x] Do you want to have kids? yea. i luv the lil ppl
[x] If yes, how many? 3
[x] What will their names be? mariana! duh. umm i like the name Juvencio, and i have to have a Cesar in there.
[x] What do you wish to do when you get older? i dun noe wat i'll be, something along art, or with kids
[x] And the most famous question... Do you want to be famous? YES. i want ppl to feel bad for being mean to me

YEAH! BENEDICTO XVI! WOOT WOOT!

he seems ok. hahaha. i'll miss the old Pope though. the old pope was funny and liked to ski and stuff. u can't go wrong with ppl who like to ski. (sp). wow. i can't believe i witnessed this event. not that i'm catholic or as reaiah says "worship" (how gay pfft worship?) the pope. its just a historical moment that everyone should watch. EVEN U CHRISTIANS. STOP BEING SNOBS! PPL WHO AREN'T UR RELIGION WON'T GO TO HELL! AND POPES R HECKA COOL. lol.  i'm glad i ahve no religion, such a hassle. haha.